finally.... i'm letting out already.. thought i could hold on longer..but i just couldn't take it.. why must you be like that...? do you know i've been suffering alot..? do you even know what i am doing in the first place..? u dun have to look at me with suspicion..i am doing no wrong..and i need ur help alot..in terms of relationship..i haven't had warmth for a very long time already..ever since younger you've been beating me,even abusing me, im hurt.but i dun care. i still love you. just wanna let you know..i dun wanna disappoint you..i know you've been pinning hopes on me..and i hope i won't fail u this time..but first u hafta trust me..trust me..and let me feel the warmth,like the warmth u gave me last time when i was just born.Mummy always tells me how great u are in bringing me up..but i wanna hear it frm u..everytime i face u, i dun really know what to say..it's only abt bills and money nothing else..tell me, dad, do u really love me..?

and mom...i know it's weird and u can't read this, but i wanna thank you alot fo bringing me up..ever since i was in your womb..although u can be very naggy and nasty at times, but i know this is for my own good..blocking dad frm beating me up and end up getting hit also..providing me with all the pocket money..helping me cool down dad when him and i fought..hearing my thots and feelings..paying my phone bills..filling me with all the good food u cook..i just wanna say that URE GREAT, mum! I will always love you...although our chance to bond has been blocked out by bro, i will still love you..i will try to buy a good present for ur 50th birthday nxt yr! <3

Thankies, mum and dad.. u will always be my hero and heroine.. ._.