Wednesday, 18 July 2007, 7:14:00 pm
to u......It's...not that you wanted this to happen...It's not that YOU know this would happened...don't blame yourself so much...The world has changed and so have you.Realising the need to fall down and get up immediately is a good thing to know. Sad pasts..they're just ways for you to learn from,to grow wiser,to think better. What you think of others might not be what they ARE actually. You may seem that this is perhaps the most saddening part of your life,but i think this is not just it. There will surely be more coming up. So why not TRY to get up and get out of this situation,and to think of your future..?That,when you grow older,you may look back into the past, and realised that wow how many obstacles you have past..You may still want to sit down alone in a corner,and cry to yourself. You may not know about me,but i've done that so many times,so many that i cannot remember already..that i also cannot remember why i cried for actually..I think the human minds have the capability to "block" out what you don't wish to remember from you.Miraculous huh.isn't it..?They are just obstacles;when i was younger in my Primary school days..i didn't have much friends around..perhaps i was a quite rowdy person..Maybe now i still am..?In my primary school if you are the weaker one,you are always the one being bullied.Even being the stronger one,u also cannot fit in the crowd..I happen to be the stronger one,maybe because of my build that i HAVE to LOOK like a stronger girl.But,my main point is i always feel very left out,even though i have this bunch of friends we hang out during recesses.I can still remember the first day of my secondary school life..I was trying to search for my name in the class list on the noticeboard outside the auditorium.1G2 it was..and so i went in..There i sat on the floor alone..anticipating for anyone i happen to know that would end up in my class..but there wasn't any.There were afew from my primary sch that went to the same secondary sch as me.From the 360 people,there were only 5 or 6.Naturally,none from my primary school class ended in the same secondary class as me.There i realised i was so sad,so alone..I had to change,quickly..But, i really have to thank my bunch of friends who accompanied me from secondary one all the way up till now..Thanks babes.. (",)You have to tell your body,mind and soul to break free already.That's not called cheating.....that's fighting the "Hollow" inside you.He,who has taken your heart away for a very long time.....Come back,face it, fight it..Love,is not a one way thing..it's made up of 2 hearts joined together,not one actually..so if one is not committing already, just Let go....this may not be the first time u get told with all these...I can see..that you're still fighting with the truth inside you..sometimes faking denial may just hurt you more.I,as a friend,am telling you,not to give up,fighting.Continue,to battle what should not be there in the first place.....all these......has been making us hard to communicate as before already..
