Many misses to those far, far away... :'(


Man.
It gets scary to see how far away you've already drifted away from a friend whom you've known for quite some time, spent quite an amount of precious time together, had your share of fun with him/her...
Be it someone whom you see every week, or another whom you've not seen for months, it's heart-wrenching to see from your own point of view that for some reason you've been ignored since who knows when or who knows why.
The moment when you think you're trying to look at that person hoping that he/she will realise it and look back at you and smile, it didn't appear successful at any attempts made all these while.
Could it be a little spark that set this whole fire up and nobody else but you knows about it?

This bridge of communication has become so torn and rusty that there are no materials available to mend it back. Or nobody knows where to get the materials..but God, only God could make the miracle to mend it back and make it useful again.


All these weeks of hectic rushabouts and precious gatherings, it has been adding on so much to the weight on the shoulders. It's like many dumbbells stacking up and weighing you down so much, and unknowingly. All you had been doing was to be a robot and do what you've been tasked to do for the time. No smiles, no tears, no buts, no happy moments, no sad moments. It was all emotionless; you didn't even have time to sit down and think about things because by then it'd be too tiring to even lift a finger when you get home.
And what you've been taught was to find a person whom you're comfortable with to share your troubles and sufferings so that you won't feel that stiff within. You know, it's actually quite hard to get one...



Tell Me Why – Taylor Swift



Tell Me Why
- Taylor Swift

I took a chance, I took a shot
And you might think I'm bulletproof but I'm not
You took a swing, I took it hard
And down here from the ground, I see who you are

I'm sick and tired of your attitude
I'm feeling like I don't know you
You tell me that you love me then you cut me down

And I need you like a heartbeat
But you know you got a mean streak
Makes me run for cover when you're around

And here's to you and your temper
Yes, I remember what you said last night
And I know that you see what you're doing to me
Tell me, why?

You could write a book on how
To ruin someone's perfect day
Well, I get so confused and frustrated
Forget what I'm trying to say, oh

I'm sick and tired of your reasons
I got no one to believe in
You tell me that you want me, then push me around

And I need you like a heartbeat
But you know you got a mean streak
Makes me run for cover when you're around

Here's to you and your temper
Yes, I remember what you said last night
And I know that you see what you're doing to me
Tell me, why?

Why do you have to make me feel small
So you can feel whole inside?
Why do you have to put down my dreams
So you're the only thing on my mind?

I'm sick and tired of your attitude
I'm feeling like I don't know you
You tell me that you want me then cut me down

I'm sick and tired of your reasons
I've got no one to believe in
You ask me for my love then you push me around

Here's to you and your temper
Yes, I remember what you said last night
And I know that you see what you're doing to me
Tell me, why? Why? Tell me, why?

I take a step back, let you go
I told you I'm not bulletproof
Now you know

-

but I thank Daddy that I've already left this inhumane job.
Now's the time to trust in the Lord for unmerited favor and for a good occupation to come hopping at my doorstep and not the other way round, amen! :)





My comfort circle's back up.
And I hate false befriending.
So don't come near me trying to be cool with me just because someone told you to.

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